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Posted
Date: February 12, 2006
Title: Momentary Deviation
Author: TLynn
Email: fallingsky@comcast.net
Feedback: Always welcome, always appreciated.
Distribution: If you'd like it, it's yours. Just let me know where it is.
Rating: PG-13
Classification: MSR
Spoilers: Post-ep for 'all things' Disclaimer: They belong to Chris Carter,
1013, and
Fox. I'm just having fun with them.
Author's Note: Whilst watching my Season 7 DVDs, I was inspired. It's been
a very long
while since I've written anything. Here's hoping I still have "it",
even to some degree.
Thanks go out to my once and again beta, Robin. Your support and careful
eye means the
world to me! And to Circe for giving my fic a home at http://tlynn.invidiosa.com.
For: sallie. It may not meet the requirements of your challenge, but I
hope you like it
just the same.
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He walks into
his bedroom, the hardwood floor creaking quietly under his steps. It's
dark, save for the moonlight intermittently shining through the window,
marred by the
trees swaying in the brisk wind outside. He stops at the foot of his bed,
standing still, his
body tired, his mind alert. Slowly, he lifts his arms and extends them
over his shoulders,
his fingers grabbing at the black cotton of his shirt, and slides it over
his head and
off onto the bed. His skin erupts with gooseflesh and he shivers slightly
in response to
the cool night air.
He thinks about his choices, about the paths he has walked down. Life
was normal until
Samantha was taken, an even that violently thrust him onto the first significant,
and
longest, path of his life. His fixation on finding that ever-elusive "truth"
directed him neatly
and easily to an office in the basement of the J. Edgar Hoover Building.
It was a path he
has no intention of wavering from, a path of truths and lies, of guilt
and of frustration, a
path that ripped apart what was left of his family. It opened up a world
bigger than himself,
bigger than the abduction of his sister, a world that was dark and sinister.
By all accounts
he should be a broken man, weary and defeated, but each setback ultimately
fueled his
passion and each breakthrough doubly so.
A partner
reinforced that passion along the way, someone who, upon their first meeting,
he nearly dismissed as one more in a long line of faceless barricades
he'd have to hurdle
in his quest. Though assigned to him by the Bureau, she could have easily
been ditched,
leaving him free to concentrate on the tasks at hand. But she quickly
got under his skin.
Now, on this night, as he pictures her sleeping in the next room, he knows
just how
grateful he is he decided to continue on his path with her at his side.
He knows how
grateful he is that she walked with him then and still walks with him
now. 'One wrong
turn…' He knows the fine line she walked in the duration of the
past two days. He knows
she was alone on her path, knows she came to her own fork, and knows she
considered
going down another road without him. The thought makes him shudder.
"Mulder?"
He turns
his head to see her leaning against the doorjamb, only the soft light
of his fish
tank illuminating her features. Her hair is mussed some and her jacket
is off. Her feet
are covered only in nylons, making her short stature all the more evident.
She looks
sleepy still.
"Hey,"
he says to her. "You taking off?"
"Mmm,"
she hums, by way of answering. "Sorry I fell asleep."
"It's
okay, Scully. I know you think I'm boring."
She
smiles at the joke and pushes herself off the doorjamb to approach him
slowly, her
eyes still adjusting to the dark. There was a time when her move to embrace
him would have
surprised him some, but now it seems natural, another new path of their
relationship he
happily walks down. Her body language suggests she needs more than a friendly
squeeze as
her arms wrap low around his waist and her head rests firmly against his
chest. She feels
delicate in his arms, fragile almost, and his immediate instinct is one
of protection. He
holds her to him, his arms tight around her. He feels her breath on the
bare skin over
his pectorals and the warm, short bursts send a shiver through his body.
"Hey,
you okay?" he asks.
She
nods against him, but says nothing, and her arms tighten around him a
bit more. He
doesn't say any more and turns his head to rest on top of hers, enjoying
the moment,
reveling in the closeness. He isn't blessed with the ability to freely
express his feelings for
her, except, perhaps while under the influence of painkillers. His self-doubt
and culpability
masterfully keep the words at bay, but his love for her flows through
every fiber of his
being; he can only hope she will see it someday, and know how long it's
been brewing.
He doesn't
know how much time has passed, nor does he care, when she finally shifts
her
head and moves it back to look at him. A gentle smile plays across his
face at her as her
eyes meet his, the blue of them evident even in the shadows. Her expression
is calm and
assured and he takes a moment to savor the idea that maybe she is as content
as he is in
their embrace.
"Do
you regret any of the choices you've made?" she asks.
"We
all have regrets, Scully, but no," he says thoughtfully. "Not
if it meant I wouldn't
be here with you right now."
She
beams, her eyes shining with tears, at his words. He mirrors her smile
and leans to
brush his lips across her forehead. He suppresses his surprise when she
tilts her head and
meets his lips with her own in a soft kiss and nearly chokes on it when
she opens her
mouth beneath him. The kiss deepens quickly, their tongues caressing against
each other
unrestrained, repressed hunger. He feels the panic rise and pulls away
for a breath, his
heart fiercely pounding against his chest, his hands trembling even as
he holds her to him.
She stays motionless in his arms, her chest heaving with deep breaths,
her eyes searching
his face in an array of emotions that embodies confusion and fear, hope
and desire.
He opens
his mouth to speak, but finds all words escape him. He finds himself unable
to
fathom the apparent reality before him, that she may indeed want him just
as much as he
wants her.
"I
realized something extraordinary today, Mulder. Things have never been
so clear to me.
I don't know what tomorrow will, or can, hold for us, but if nothing else,
I know that this is
where I belong. And more importantly, this is where I want to be. You
have to trust that."
"But…"
"You
have to know that," she says quietly, firmly.
He nods.
He knows. He dips his head and again captures her mouth with his, finally
allowing
himself to release all he feels and finally allowing himself to receive
all she has to give.
Their
clothing is shed and pools at their feet. They lay together, limbs upon
limbs, sinking
and rising into one another. The room fills with the sounds of their breath
and the warmth
of their bodies. Their combined years of loneliness makes for moments
of awkwardness,
but the intoxication of a union finally realized overshadows any embarrassment.
She gasps
beneath him and he cries out above her. He collapses beside her, his head
buried safely
against her neck. He inhales her scent deeply, content and consumed. He
quickly falls
asleep, deep and undisturbed, while she pulls a cover over them and enters
into a fitful
slumber.
She
wakes long before he does. She sits up, careful not to disturb him, and
stares down
at his sleeping form, silently watching him and savoring the significance
of the moment,
for a very long time before rising. She dresses in the bathroom, hoping
he doesn't wake.
She knows it will be easier if no words are spoken. She forces the tasks
of the upcoming
day into her mind and quietly makes her exit.
For
one night, the paths that make up the twisted labyrinth of their lives
were finally in
perfect synchronicity. They will undoubtedly wander from each other while
searching for
their own truths, perhaps emotionally, perhaps physically, in the harsh
reality of daylight,
but always with the knowledge of that night and always with the unwavering
belief that
they will indeed find themselves going in the same direction once again.
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